Today I got a blessing to help my body listen to the hormones encouraging labor. I have been worried about that because hormones are the cause of labor, and if I know nothing else, I know that my hormones are out of whack. I feel better, and more confident now.

Much has been happening in the past few days. About a week ago, I conceived again, 2 identical boys, and two sets of identical girls who were half identical to each other. I knew that I could not bear twenty babies due in the same month. I also trusted my Heavenly Father to take care of spacing.

Yesterday I started bleeding. I have lost the most recent six, the four boys, and the four girls. I have not yet lost the first set of sextuplets, and I am praying that they will be fine if it is the Lord's will. I do not worry about sextuplets, but twenty in a month was a bit much I thought.

At the time when I carried the most I had thirty-four babies. All of them are named. All of them are loved. All of them are wanted. We just are going to have to wait for a few.